Dear Jack Pearson

Tonight I watched S02 E15 of THIS IS US, and I finally have answers to my what, how and when. It’s 3:11 am and I’m writing this letter to you because today I felt a surge of emotions as I witnessed your story unfold and it broke me in ways I can’t describe. But it did more than that… it wrapped me up in a sense of sweet comfort and as I slowly unrolled the parchment, it revealed a roadmap of how I can lead my life best by being what I am.

I relate a lot to how you feel, think and decide. I see me in you as you plan surprises for people you love, as you slowly become their go-to person, as you see what they desire by just reading their eyes and strive to get it for them. And in doing all this, as you find your happiness in them. You make their lives beautiful with your fun traditions, silly jokes, hearty laughter and brightest hopes.

It is not just the good parts, you know? I see me in your ‘sourest lemon’ moments too.  I feel your scars, your tangled messy thoughts, your deepest insecurities and your darkest fears. I experience all this as if they are my own!

I believe in owning up to my choices entirely too because that’s the only way you can truly drive away from crossroads. I also understand your idea of keeping your demons to yourself while sometimes faking a strong front. Because that’s how you stop those demons from hurting anyone else in your life, right?

Well, above all, I see you when I can’t hold back from giving a nice long pep talk when someone feels low. I can’t let them wallow in the mire even if they want to, because all I want is to make them feel better right away!

Jack, you are insanely impulsive, ferociously romantic, fiercely protective, endlessly patient and genuinely pure. I promise to try my best to be at least half the person you are because you are my role model to become the best version of myself.

So, wish me luck on this journey of finding and losing my balance as I go about tasting sour lemonades and Jack Pearsoning until the end of my time.

Yours lovingly,
Iva